How Do I Tell Them

No really, how?

When people ask me how I'm doing

I tell them okay so they get going

Not because I'm actually okay

but because I don't know what to say

How do I tell them that sometimes I feel like

I'm drowning but not in water

How do I explain that the air feels spiked

and breathing becomes tougher

How do I say that sometimes I question my existence

and that there are times I'm sure I'm pretty useless

How do I tell them the things I don't understand

How do I get them to understand the feelings I wasnt't expecting before hand

So tell me why I shouldn't just give them a brief "I'm okay" when they ask

When the real answer is too long and I don't even know how long this will last